INFIDELIOUS

INFIDELIOUS: The act or state of practicing Infidelity.

My name isn't really Angelica. But that's how I'm known on the internet. That's what all the men I chat with, potential lovers and lovers know me by.

When I turned 44, something inside my brain started a count-down clock. I suddenly felt that my sexuality had a very real and finite shelf life. Although my relationship with my husband was very stable, our sex life was very one sided. By that, I mean he almost always got off and I was left to take care of myself with my vibrator. I felt that after 50, women become invisible and fall off a sexually desirable cliff. (I've later found this tthinking to be innaccurate, but at the time I believed this.) I felt this pressure to do something.

For many years, I felt like this was my fate and I was resigned to it. But in that 44th year, there was an attitude shift. I'm successful in my professional life and don't tolerate mediocrity so why couldn't I apply this attitude to my sex life?

After months of voicing concerns and needs to my husband without a stitch of progress, I became proactive on my own behalf.

My first step happened very innocently through a service most of us have...Netflix.

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